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Monday, June 11, 2007

GUILTY

Well...I feel guilty this morning.

I think Charli is starting to get sick - and I feel terrible. The past few weeks Charli has been feeling and acting so well, we have been a bit more "brave" with her than we have been in the past. Up until about a month ago we were okay with keeping her home, limiting visitors, and limiting where we would go so we wouldn't bring anything home. BUT - a few weeks ago we went out for the first time (taking Charli on a 'trip') and it got us excited! So, we have started to take her a few more places to visit, letting a few more people come into the house, etc...and now she is sick. UGH.

I know that sickness comes with children - that I get. However, most children aren't going through chemo and have a weakened immune system. I am not sure how long she will hold onto her stuffy nose, cough, and sneezes, that she woke with at 4am...but either way I feel bad.

We have to take her to Omaha this weekend for her MRI. I am afraid that if she gets treatment while sick, she will be knocked off her feet. I know it may seem silly, but please pray that she feels better before our next trip to Omaha, which is Friday...

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

It is a Mommies JOB to feel guilty...no matter what happens to our kids...for some reason it has to be because of something we did or did not do!!! But Mommies also have a very special JOB of making everything better...lots of love, rest and cuddles...REMEMBER you are a great Mom!!! I will pray extra hard for Charli's cold to go away in time for this weekends MRI!!

Anonymous said...

I will say a prayer that this passes in time for your trip to Omaha! I know you're anxious (and nervous) about that trip and I want everything to go smoothly for you guys. Give Charli extra hugs and kisses this week!
XOXO-Courtney

Anonymous said...

Definitely extra hugs and kisses. I will be praying for to be feeling better before Friday.
Lots of Love from my family here in Michigan.
Katie, Mike and Chloe Marie

Anonymous said...

WE WILL SAY A PRAYER FOR LIL CHARLI,HOPE SHE FEELS BETTER SOON!! LOVE YA, JEN

Anonymous said...

Keep your chin up girl. She's a toughie & will come thru with flying colors. You're a great mommy, and it's as good for her to get some fresh air as anything. I feel guilty if Ryan bumps his head, it's in our nature! Come over & visit us one of these days I'm home. We'd luv it!

Anonymous said...

We are saying an extra prayer for Charli! You're doing a wonderful job!!!!

Anonymous said...

Hi Brenda-

In the NB world, it is never "silly" to ask for prayers of getting over a cold. Don't feel weird about it as it's hard for any mom when their baby is sick, let alone if they have cancer. I will pray that she makes a speedy recovery. I would consider still avoiding places with crowds and letting people into the house, but you can still enjoy activities with her if she wears a mask. She needs to be reminded that not every trip out of the house is a trip to the hospital. You're a great mom and Chad is a great dad for wanting her to have a good quality of life - don't ever think otherwise!

Other than that just lots of rest, fluids and hugs and kisses (send a hug over for me :)

Anna

Anonymous said...

Hi Brenda,

Your family is continuely in our prayers! I too felt guilty when our first night in Colorado I had to take Trenton to the ER for fever and shoulder pain and the doctors there not knowing how to treat chemo kids. It is so difficult!! Our thoughts will be with you this weekend! The Kuta's

Anonymous said...

We will say an extra prayer for her recovery from this cold and for the tests this week in Omaha. Jonell

Anonymous said...

Brenda you and Chad are amazing parents and continue to give Charli so much love and care. We will pray for her cold to pass so she will be ready for the weekend. The posts are so good and say it all. Just keep doing the wonderful job you are doing as Mommy & Daddy...do what you can and let God do the rest. Love you, Grma P