Tuesday, March 31, 2009
We knew that they were, but we still needed to hear it from our doctor! Thanks for keeping Charil in your prayers as we waited for the results!
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Charli was an absolute champion for her scans. She did FAR better than we could have asked for.
I was told that the radiologist did not see anything abnormal at the time of the ultrasound, but that was from the tech who performed the scan. We have not received the official call from Charli's oncologist, which would have been nice to have before hitting the pillow last night!! But, we trust it is okay all the same, there is just something about having our doctor tell us she is "good to go" officially!!
Thanks for checking in on us - and again I am sorry for not posting sooner!! :-)
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Having said that I have all the faith in the world that her scans will come back GREAT!! But, there is still *that* possibility.
Another change for us is that this will be an ultrasound and not a CT or MRI. This means that Charli's little body will not be exposed to as much radiation from the tests, which is nice considering how much she has already been exposed too. This is a good sign, showing us that we are moving forward...
And finally, the last change is that Charli is not scheduled to be sedated for this tests. This will be her first test that she will have to lay still for. This could be a major challenge for many reasons!!! We will take Dora along, and we will take videos along -- so I hope we can keep her interested in those things and not what the doctors are doing. But, do you think it is really going to happen?!! There will be new people in the room with funny looking machines touching her tummy - hmmm?!! Please say extra prayers in this department!! If all else fails, we will just need to reschedule her scans and give her a little something extra to help her fall asleep for a bit. The fact that they are willing to try it without anything is another sign that she is growing up!!
I know I haven't said this in a long time, so I want to make sure to say it now. Thank you all so much for the love and support you give my family. You will never know what it means to us to know that you are all out there still loving and caring for Charli...and soon the new baby too! Sometimes it feels like a life time ago that we were actually living the nightmare, and sometimes it even feels like it was all a dream - or just a book I read. And other times I am reminded that it is all too real! Either way...the support we have found in you, the faithful followers, has been amazing. You have certainly made me a better parent and friend - and for that I will be forever thankful.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Charli is finally getting her two year molars in (she has always been slow with her teeth!) and I noticed them while we were getting ready this morning. We talked about them a little and took off for Lynn's...
We were driving and I asked her if she was getting teeth on the top or just her bottom. I thought she might try to feel for herself so I looked in the rear-view mirror to watch her do this, thought it would be cute!! She gave me the funniest look, as if to say "mom, you are such a dork!!" and she said, as serious as can be...
"no mom!! I don't have teeth on my bottom!"
DUH!!! What a silly question to ask a 2 1/2 year old!!!! :-) These are the moments we live for!!
This morning I watched Good Morning America with my daughter Mackenzie preparing her for her CT and MIBG injection she had scheduled later this morning and Miss America was being interviewed regarding her shaving her head, she said she was doing this for Pediatric Cancer Awareness and raising funds for research, she is having her head shaved April 11th and ABC Good Morning America is going air it. Our Miss America got approval from the Pagent committee to do this and she said she was involved in helping our cancer children. She mentioned how one little girl going thru treatment told her all she wanted for Christmas was hair and how she got picked on in school being called a boy, Miss America said she was going to show up at her school wearing a wig and then showing her classmates her bald head. How amazing Miss America is!
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Saturday Chad and I took a day trip to Lincoln for a wedding while Charli got to spend the day with Aunt Amanda and Uncle Brad! I think they had a great time together, and got to do many fun things! Although, I think she was not a good play date for Uncle Brad! Sometimes I think that Chad picks on her so much that she tends to not like to play with boys all together!! (not all bad I guess!! ha)
Today we took a nice walk around our neighborhood that I thought would tucker Charli out, but didn't!! We came home, ate a good snack, and played outside! She loved to be on the swing set her dad built last year, and enjoyed running around the yard. We wish we had a bigger yard for her to run around in!!
Tonight we had our pizza-party. Charli was so excited to go to the "pizza party" and she talked about it all day! Chad tried to get her to understand or at least try to grasp why we were celebrating, but she thought it was because she got to see her cousin Colton and "his brothers" she said!! As you will see, they both got to enjoy RING POPS courtesy of Grandpa Preister!
I think we had 32 people at the party tonight!! It was a great time to thank everyone for all the support they have given us over the past two years! Most of everyone who made it are people we get to see fairly often, but there are a few that we don't get to see often at all...and it was nice to have everyone together! It was just a nice-nice time I think - I hope they thought so to!
So...we are ending this day/weekend on a high note! I heard someone say "she sure is doing much better than she was two years ago tonight". I can remember the pj's she was wearing that night and the color of bottle we tried to feed her with -- among all the memories I have of the past two years, my favorite was the smile she gave me tonight when she said "mom, come on..." as she was carrying her stuff out of the party room at Pizza Hut!! She has grown up and out of being that "sick little girl with cancer". She is a miracle, a blessing, and all of the things I could ever want wrapped up into 29 lbs of LOVE! I can not even put into words the pride and abundance of love I am feeling tonight...so I will just sign off!!
Thanks to those who were able to share a few memories, it is fun to see her life through the eyes of others :-)
"say cheese mommy"
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
730 days ago Charli was diagnosed with cancer.
730 days ago our lives were changed forever.
730 days ago we became members to a crappy club.
730 days ago we vowed to save our daughters life.
730 days ago Charli was diagnosed with cancer.
I have been really torn on how I wanted to handle the upcoming weekend. Part of me wants to sulk and cry, and kind of relive the emotions I should have felt two years ago. Part of me wants to ignore it and move on, because look where we are now. And, part of me really doesn't know how to act, to be honest!!
Our lives have changed and turned so much in the past two years. They haven't changed for the worse by any means, but I sure never expected our lives to be where they are now...731 days ago.
I want to recap some of the high and low lights of the past two years:
Charli had numerous surgeries
Charli spent many nights in the hospital
I celebrated my birthday next to Charli while she got chemo
Charli lost her hair
Charli grew her hair back
I watched Charli roll-over for the first time
We saw Charli crawl for the first time
We saw Charli take her first steps
Charli received chemotherapy
Charli beat cancer
Charli's Angels rallied around all kids with cancer...
Charli's Angels raised over $25,000 for kids/adults fighting cancer
Charli has inspired numerous friends, family members, and strangers
We have seen kids die at the hands of this disease
We have seen kids triumph over this disease
Clinical trials have failed
Clinical trials have succeeded
We have educated people about kids with cancer
We have been told that WE were killing our daughter with the course of action we were taking
We trusted our doctors
We doubted our doctors
We made friends through treatment
We lost friends through treatment
We found solid rocks of support in our lives, because of cancer
We love more
We love harder
We love deeper
Little things are just little things...they aren't cancer, or a relapse
Charli's considered to be NED
Charli went back to daycare, and Chad and I back to "normal" routines
Charli celebrated her first birthday!
Charli celebrated her second birthday!
Charli celebrated 1 year post diagnosis...
Charli is celebrating 2 years post diagnosis...
My list could go on and on as I recap the past two years. I am amazed by how our lives have changed, what I thought was important three years ago couldn't matter less today!
I am so thankful to have Charli in my life, and I refuse to let the little things be taken for granted. Someone asked me how it makes me feel, to come upon this weekend - and like I said before I don't really know how to feel (aside from emotional!!). But, I know that one thing I feel is excited. If we are at 2 years, we are almost half-way to 5 years...which is a magical spot for kids like Charli -- so I am excited about that! I know the day that Charli goes to Kindergarten will be bittersweet to see my baby go to school, yet a day to celebrate because many don't get to enjoy that experience with their children. Far to many miss out on the heartbreak of sending their babies to school...
I imagine this post is getting to long, so I will wrap it up -God knows I could go on, and on, and on about this!!
I would like to thank all of you for being here for our family the past 730 days and counting. We couldn't have done it without you, and for that we are always thankful. To celebrate the life that Charli has lived and the joy she has brought so many of us...if you have a minute, please write a memory or story you remember from the past 730 days of knowing and following Charli! I know she has changed lives in this world and I would love to know how!!
We are having a celebration party for Charli this weekend so I will post pictures next week!!!!
This is a great way to look at the fight against cancer.
Some of us Relay, some of us are Candle Lighters...some of us do nothing because we feel we can never do enough...
whatever YOU do, know that YOU are saving lives...
YOU are changing the world to children who will never suffer because of the advances that are made with your help...
YOU are the hero.
Monday, March 09, 2009
Sunday, March 08, 2009
I sang at a wedding this weekend, and it seems like it has been while since I have been at a wedding! I enjoyed listening to the message and the phrase "marriage is about self sacrifice and not self fulfillment" stuck with me. I thought about that phrase and wondered when the last time I truly made a self sacrifice for my marriage. I can't really come up with anything, so today I watched turkey hunting with Chad as a way to TRY to start self sacrifice!!!! Baby steps???
Charli's friend Elli (and friends) made this picture for Charli and gave it to her last weekend! It is super cute!!!
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Last weekend we went to Broken Bow to celebrate Ryen's 6th birthday, the girls had SO MUCH FUN!! I am so sad that we don't live closer, to see the girls together is priceless. It would be nice to have them together more often. Charli and Macey are 10 months apart, but the same size! Macey teaches Charli all sorts of things that "3 year olds" do! You will see below a video of one of these "things"!!! They have a GREAT time together! And, poor Ryen...she used to be the ring-leader but as the girls get older they are starting to want to play their own way, and their own thing!! Regardless, the three girls are are like the musketeers!!!! Happy LATE birthday Ryen :-) (and Kara and Amanda!!)
This weekend Charli got to spend another full day with the McMeekins! Chad and I went to Omaha with Brad and Amanda to eat at Kobe's Steakhouse and watch J. Medicine Hatt at the Funny Bone. The food was great, and the show was hilarious!!
Tonight we had a Relay meeting, which hopefully got people motivated to start raising money!! Need details -- let me know!! Charli had a full day of playing, eating, playing, and eating up all the attention!!! Apparently she got a ring pop and all night she wanted a sucker for her thumb, and was so sad to not get one. She was not too excited about coming home with me today :-) It is great when they have fun while away, but it makes the transition back home a real bear!!!! She is sound asleep now and tomorrow will be a new day, one that will end with with a ring pop after supper tomorrow!!
This is me at 22 weeks. As you can see I am fat, but not obviously pregnant. Depending on what I am wearing I just look frumpy fat. Oh the joys :-) I am 23 weeks tomorrow, and as pf now we plan to have the baby at 38.5 weeks, which means 15 weeks left. Depending on how you say it, it can sound like a L-O-N-G time, or a very short time!!
This is the ultrasound picture from two weeks ago. We weren't able to get a "great" shot, but we did get a picture! The video is a little better because there are more options for viewing!! As Charli said "I don't want that monster to come to my house!!". It is almost like she knows how much of a monster she will think he/she is in about a year when he/she is taking her toys :)!!!
Finally - one video demonstrating monkey see - monkey do of the Charli & Macey duo!! I guess God knew what he was doing when he put these two 2 1/2 hours apart, they would be trouble I think!!!!! They have a great time, and that is what memories are made of!! So, I thank God for the time they have together :)