As I sit in our hospital room - this is what I see...
My wonderful husband crashed on the "couch" sleeping so peacefully. Three feet to the left of him is our (nearly) 10 month old baby girl, sleeping so beautifully. She is has no idea what is going on today, or in the days past - and we hope her life (as she knows it) won't be effected. So, really...when is it all said and done, what we are going through...is it really THAT bad?
Don't get me wrong, it is a living hell to be Chad and I (and other friends and family) but we are just bystanders...ya know?
I was just sitting on the desk in Charli's room, looking out the window at all the cars going by - thinking that I have no idea what those peoples lives are like. It is true that I feel we have had our share of hardships, but there is no quota for heartache...so dwelling on the past ones won't do any good! In reality, if it weren't for all the bad, the good wouldn't mean anything. Everyone has heartache.
What I am trying to say, is that underneath all the heartache and pain we have had over the past three months, I couldn’t ask to change anything. Obviously, I would love for Charli to be cancer free. However, going through this process has put so much of life into perspective for my family…and I hope for others too.
When all of this is said and done I hope to say, “Hi, my name is Brenda. My daughter is a neuroblastoma survivor, and my life has been enriched because of it!” I pray that through her diagnosis we will make a difference for someone who will be diagnosed in years to come, and that the world will be a different and better place because of all of this. I truly believe this will happen, and it will be because of YOUR love and support.