what.a.day

Today is a sad day for me...and a bit of a stressful one too!

I was able to get Harper into the doctor this morning, so after six days and $500 we have ruled out:
-pink eye
-influenza
-strep

But have assumed "rsv". Either way we are on the downhill slide, hopefully. So far we have not had a fever, yay harper :-) We had a long sit at the dr office, and am soo glad to be home! This is a slice of the stress.

The sadness comes from the fact that I had to miss the celebration of life for our "always a hero" 2008 Hero of Hope Tracy, who I have written about several times. The viewing was last night followed by a special luminaria ceremony held just for her, which included story time and snow angels. What an amazing event to hold in someones honor, what a pity to have missed. This morning I was sad again when it was time for the funeral service to start and I was unable to attend as well. My heart breaks knowing I was not able to be there in person - Tracy deserved such a different ending. Most people will only fantasize about leaving the legacy that Tracy actually left behind. As my friend, and fellow 2011 Hero of Hope, said - there is nothing more difficult to watch that a 30-something year-old man bury the mother of his two young sons. And she is right. Does anyone want to use this opportunity to tell me why they are too busy to relay?!

So while today is a sad and stressful day, it is a day of so much more than I can put into words.

I went into work to pick up a few things so I could work from home today, and on my desk sat $60+ of girl scout cookies! And because of this I reaffirmed that just as many bad things can create a whirlwind of a bad day....many good things can turn everything around!! I am off to sample of a few of my "good things" for today while the kids sleep and I catch up on work!! Thank you girl scouts for selling cookies...and thank you girl scouts mothers for helping to sell said cookies!! :D

Here is to a better tomorrow, and adios February...take all the sadness and stress with you!!

EDIT TO ADD:

3:37pm - I have had a total day turn around! After nap, while both kids were sitting on my lap Charli turned to me and said "mom, I do love you a lot, but I think I will always love harper more" My reply to her was "that is exactly how it should be honey, thank you for being the best big sister ever!" She said "but maybe that isn't nice to say mom, I love you the same". I reminded her that she will ALWAYS be Harper's big sister, so it is her job to take care of him...and that means loving him more than anything else in the world!! What a sweetie-pie. I think this afternoons nap was good for everyone!! :-)